April 3, 2012
In just a few short days I will begin a new phase of my college career. When I started this adventure in 2009 this was not how I saw it ending. I guess all the academic hurdles that were in my way seemed too large to see the bigger picture..... Becoming an allied health professional. It’s amazing how in just 2+ seemingly, impossible years could prepare me for the next 200 hours of applying everything that I have been taught.
Right now, I really don’t know what or how to feel. Am I really prepared for this endeavor? Will I ever be? No way to find out unless you jump head first, it’s a good thing I know how to swim. I should be feeling nervous, scared, and possibly unsure of myself, and in a small way I am, but I think it’s a healthy dose of fear that makes you more aware of the people around you and more conscious of the mistakes you will make.
I’m pretty sure that there will be mistakes. I just hope there are small and easily mend able. I don’t want to make mistakes, but I don’t think anyone does. Guess I’ll just have to take it one step at a time, and hopefully it will fly by and I’ll have some fun. I mean what is the point of taking the blood, sweat, and tears to get this far and not enjoy it. That would be a completely disappointing and a bit of a failure on my part.
So I hope that these new few weeks will be fun, fulfilling, fearful, and frustrating; frustrating because if it’s not, I didn’t give my all into it. And after I cross the streams I hope to end up on the other side with a certificate, a diploma, a career, and a much deserved mudslide.